बुझ गयी आस, चुप गया तारा…
थरथराता रहा धुआं तनहा…

जिंदगी क्या इसी को कहते हैं?
जिस्म तनहा और जान तनहा…

हमसफ़र अगर कोई मिले भी कहीं,
दोनों चलते रहे यहाँ तनहा…

जलती-बुझती-सी रौशनी के परे…
सिमटा सिमटा सा एक मकान तनहा…

राह देखा करेगी सदियों तक,
छोर जायेंगे ये जहाँ तनहा॥

People with whom you have meetings, conferences etc are in age of your dad or may be grand father. You are moving with them, keeping him as a senior boss or colleague. I always had a sense of consciousness when at first I met them. I always think, what would I put up in the meetings and discussions that no one ever faced up in there time of working. I was just thinking that they would be more alert than what we are and that is true also, when they say their experience speak up. But when I talk my concepts and a change speaks. Being a youth I love to see the things to happen from a different angle. 

Meetings, all members almost all of your double or more age. Many of them would always be enthusiastic to listen and have a company to a young person like me and few keep a distance. They would like to accompany me during my stay, my travel etc etc. They shows the interest in my work, my art and my past. I love being with them. I love being known by them. I love their advices and I love when they appraise.

But when I go back to my room, I find myself alone. When I plan to move out, I find myself alone. As they have a different test of cities. They say, we are tired up by moving, let us free for sometime. Other than meeting time, I myself move around the city and capture the moments there, but the fun part remains missing.

When I move alone, I move half hearty. When someone with me, I have a thousand things to talk and miles to walk. 

–

Ashish Samdariya

When Get back to home, I find myself alone for most of  the things, I miss the life that we all passed from our graduation days. I miss my all friends. When you are close to someone, you never realize the importance of them, but remembering sweet and sourful moments is more painful. But when you think, okay by any way I’ll going to talk to my friends from IIT or friends from around the globe. It really put me in comfort zone.

As the day come closer and closer, my eagerness for their calls increases. I keep looking at my mobile for a single call at day from a friends, whom I wish to talk. and soon I get a message from customer care, saying we would like to help you sir.

Sometime, I spent my nights to do some good things for some special occasion like Holi and prepared a greeting for all of them whom I know. In response to my mail, a simple “same to you” or “wish you the same” comes. 

On the occasion of Holi, I still waited that someone will give me a call….I got messages though! Our mobiles now having function to send sms in bulk. Doesn’t matter, I enjoyed that also and hoped atleast someone ..hehe!!

Half day gone, No calls…I got frustrated, now I am making calls to everyone!!

it me

[Dedicated to all my friends, batchmates, juniors, senior, professors]

[Hostel 5, Batch of 2008, IIT Bombay]

Raah dekhi thi is din ki kabse,
aage ke sapne saja rakhe the naajane kab se

Bbade utavle the yahaan se jaane ko,
zindagi ka agla padaav paane ko.

Par naa jane kyon dil mein aaj kuch aur aata hai
waqt ko rokne ka jee chahta hai

Jin baton ko lekar rote the, aaj un par hansi aati hai
na jaane kyon aaj un pallon ki yaad bahut aati hai

Kaha karte the badi mushkil se char saal seh gaya
par aaj kyon lagta hai ki kuch peeche reh gaya

Na bhoolne wali kuch yaadein reh gayi

Meri taang ab kaun kheencha karega
sirf mera seer khane kaun mera peecha karega

[Civil Engineers, Batch of 2008, IIT Bombay]

Jahaan 2000 ka hisaab nahin wahaan 2 rupaye ke liye kaun ladega
kaun raat bhar saath jag kar padhega

Kaun meri gaadi mujse pooche bina lejayega
kaun mere naye naye naam banayega

Mein ab bina matlab kis se ladoonga
bina topic ke kisse faalto baat karoonga

[Anupam at Bell Tower, Purdue Univ, True Friend @ IIT B, Photograph By: Ashish Samdariya]

Kaun fail hone par dilasa dilayega
kaun galti se number aane par gaaliyaan sunayega

Sadak mein Beer kis ke saath piyoonga
wo haseen pal ab kis ke saath jiyoonga

Aise dost kahaan milenge
jo khayee mein bhi dhakka de aayein
par fir tumhein bachane, khud bhi kood jayein

Mere gaano se pareshaan kaun hoga
kabhi muje kisi ladki se baat karte dekh hairaan kaun hoga

Kaun kahega saale tere joke pe hansi nahin aai
kaun peeche se bula ke kahega..aage dekh bhai

Movies mein kiske saath dekhhonga
kis ke saath boring lectures jheloonga

Mere farzee certificates ko raddi kehne ki himmat kaun karega
bina dare sachi rai dene ki himmat kaun karega

Achanak bin matlab ke kisi ko bhi dekh kar paglon ki tarah hansna
na jaane ye fir kab hoga, keh do doston ye dobaara sab hoga

Doston ke liye professor se kab lad payenge
kya hum ye fir kar payenge

[My Wing: United Kingdom, Photographer: ??, Message me]

Raat ko 2 baje pohe khane aur ciggy pine station kaun jayega
tez gaadi chalane ki shart kaun lagayega

Kaun muje mere kabiliyat par bharosa dilayega
aur jyada hawa mein udne par zameen pe layega

Meri khushi mein sach mein khush kaun hoga
mere gam mein muj se jyada nam kaun hoga